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![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) _____lah
New Journal, Im not using this one anymore if you're on my friends list now I will add you to that.
♥ Lah
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| Oh fa shizzle |
[15 Dec 2004|09:45am] |
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soooooooo.. Yesterday we had a game in novi, it was alright i guess.. Fun times during the varsity game fa sho, thier pom pon squad was pretty elite though.
Hmmm.. i miss summmer. alot :/
I miss cali, but theres only 60 some days untill i go back :D
I miss being best friends with Rusty Ryan + Joey, and driving down cherryhill till we hit the end, i miss our movies all the time and just chillen with like 15 of us where ever we could find, i miss smackdown all the time and tag.
I miss going to like 3 shows a week.
I miss just having fun, it seems with school comes bordem, and when your bored you think to much, and when you think to much you miss to much, and when you miss to much you feel lonley, than you have like ONE good day and you feel absolutly wonderful like everythings perfect but than you have to go home before school the next day and you just feel like shit and the process starts all over again. Its not fun.
I just miss summer, i cannot wait untill next.
Also im excited to chill with Lauren & Amber on Sunday i haven't seen those ladies in god knows how long.
yay for that, and yay for christmas break.
2 more wake ups, 2 more days of school.
I have practice untill 430 today. than i might just come home and sleep. Im so tired.
Im just rambling now, so im done.
Goodbye ♥
Lah
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| well christmas is right around teh corner.. |
[14 Dec 2004|10:09am] |
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So Christmas is right around the corner.. yay for that.
Whhoosshhh fa sha, lol.
Me Amber Chel Cort + Jamie are strating a band after christmas lmfao look out for us. 8) hehe..
Today we have a game in novi YAY!.. not urg.
I was at brittanys all day yesterday we had best friend time, had some fun on psp..
Ryan came over boy got his licence o fa sho :) what fun lol.
Than Bill & Micah came over and we drove around for a little and jsut talked about things, i hope we go back to normal like old time :] that would be super
Bill droped me off and i just came home & chilled.. weee! lol
xo lah
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| You made all these promises.. |
[13 Dec 2004|10:11am] |
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So my journal is fucked but whatever.. i guess ill still write.
This weekend was okay friday my game we lost :/ bummer. that i went out to eat with my mom and than home that was fun
saturday around 8 i fianlly left the house, went to chels & her mom took us to downtown plymoth we got cold stones & starbucks ♥ yumm than Rus showed up with his two friends Kevin and Caleb. we rented white chicks piled in the car and all went back to chells and watch it. whoo hoo fun. Lol
Sunday: woke up cac left early so me jame and chel made a huge breakfast jammed to music than i left. Those girls crack me up i love them
PICS LATER TO COME :) hehee...
Im in school right now, im so tired and i feel like shit But im wearing an Nsync shirt how rad is that? lmfao.
♥ Lah
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[12 Dec 2004|07:54pm] |
01. Who are you, what's our relationship:
02. How and where did we meet:
03. What's my middle name:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Color eyes:
11. Do i have any siblings:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things i love:
17. Do you think i'm good looking(be honest):
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
41. If you could change one thing about our relationship past present and future what would it be?
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[11 Dec 2004|01:44am] |
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Fuck journals, i done fucked this one up.
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| my arms theyre getting tired |
[10 Dec 2004|09:48am] |
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Life seems so blah, yesterday school was gay. After I went home, than went to Mikeys we watched Blue Crush & just kind of talked. Hes a good friend, really he is. Than i had practice my whole body hurts :/ we have a game today.. ohh what joy. NOT. whatever. I dont know Tommaorw Me Cort & Jamie are going to Chels house than To Downtown Plymoth boy am I glad. I dont want to eb around people from my school right now. So we'll prolly go to the coffee shop ♥ and just walk areound Downtown plymoth untill it gets to cold. I dont know it should be great.
♥ Lisa
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| Its just like a broken record.. |
[09 Dec 2004|10:05am] |
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Wow Fuck John Glenn i hate this school. Its sad that i really do not know who i can trust anymore. I seriosuly don't ever want to talk to people again. Its not even about me trusting people, its about me not knowing whos helping spread rumers that ARE NOT true. Its sad peopel i considerd my close friends belive them. Its sad people who used to call me up crying think i did things to hurt them. I didnt. I try to stay simple and out of the way of drama and right now i feel like the whole fucking world is like out to get me. People need to shut there mouths honestly. Belive what you want.. i dont care any more. Im done defending myself. I dont care if people are going to be mad at me about this it's thier own ignorance. Fuck all of you.
<3 lah
And to the FEW of you i trust.. Thank you.
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| Mr Danic, I know you like men now... |
[07 Dec 2004|09:44am] |
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So I've come to the conclusion I never right in My Livejournal anymore. I think thats becasue I don't update unless I'm at school and well LJ is blocked here. So yeah, So last night i went out with Crissi we were going to see The Spill Canvas.. but it iddnt work out. O well, we went to the mall to see Joey Fava :] oman i missed the shit out of him! lol that was fun.
Went home and my computer wasent working.. how homo. O well. So I just sat around and crashed.
Life latley has been blah.. nothing to good nothing bad. I have a game tonight at Walled Lake Northen Wow... I dont want to go.. o well. Shit happens. I dont know why Im just really sick, and really blah. Life is boring someone please excite me...
xo lah.
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So i havnt put pics in here in awhile
( A kiss with open eyes )
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| This Daggers My Excuse.. |
[02 Dec 2004|09:34am] |
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So Yesterday was good. I didn't feel very good but you know. So i went to tschool, than had practice Crissi came and got me and I thought we were leaving for THe 89x stole christmas show..but I guess not. Ryan wanted to come and we had to make a bunch of stops first. Whatever no big deal. We got there and parked could NOT find Cobo from our parking spot lol literally took us a half hour. So yeah we were late we Missed TBS.. o well everyone said they didnt do that good anyway. Me Ryan Tom Ej Nick + Doug had main floor so i got lost form everyone but Ryan so me and him go right up to the gates for the used basically. It was sweet. There reallly awesome live. After them.. uhh Fernce Fradonded some shit IDK went on. I didnt like them so me and ryan went and looked at merch and what not. Than Jimmy Eat World when on. So.. i liked them before but there so fucking great/amazing live i fell in love <3 LOL i had a buncha crowd surfers fall on me well sorta lol didnt hurt im just to short compared to the huge guys around me lol. O well, than GC went on and I chilled up in section A with Crissi and Melissa. So we leave and me Liss Doug + Ej are in one car and everyone else is in the other.. well crissi drives so fast and liss dosent and we just got lost from her. We got lost in Detroit for an hour maybe more.. wow i was pissed. ISK got home aorund 1 maybe? BAH FUCkING HUMBUG i'm so tired now.
I got home and I just felt like shit. Got online talked to mikey and he made me feel like more shit. I dont know anymore.. life is so blah.. but its just one bad day i guess.
<33 lah
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| ANOTHER AMAZING NIGHT! |
[01 Dec 2004|10:16am] |
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Sorry about my past few entrys god i sound depressed, well im not anymore im completley content with life.
So yesterday Me Crissi Amanda Briana Katlyn Rusty Stockdale & Beaver all met up and we left to go to Hawthorne Heights & A Static Lullaby. So we set out for the open road we Crissi took the wrong Exit but thats okay Lah was here to save the day. I rememberd from last weekend that we took Bubbion all the way. Nice Nice ! :Þ Lol. OMFG when we got there this Bum came up to the car and started washing the car with his hat, than asking for money for his services.OMFG it was scary. Lol so finally we get in there and I see Amber Chris and Derek :] I Missed those kids! lol there such a blast. Than i saw Cory Jillian and Mikey. I really thought Cory was going to ruin my night and we were fighting really bad. But i didnt let it get to me, Me and Derek were hanging out and i guess Cory was getting pissed so i sat down and talked with him and he was being a dick so Amb Chris And Derek go Lisa come here and Derek Goes to help me up cuz he was standing right next to me, and cory goes if you get up and say goodbye than its goodbye forever. I thought about it and than I got up. Fuck that Im going to have a great time with or without him. After that i didnt talk to him the rest of the night. You think I'd be sad but i wasnt at all.. not even the littlest bit. Me Crissi Amanda n' Derek go to Watch Hawthorne Heights and Crissi and Amanda didnt want to be in much chaos so they went off to the side. I made Derek Protect me from the Moshs cuz i really didnt want to get in them, it was fun though lol. So after they played they threw Drumsticks.. hehe Derek Caught it along with 3 other kids, and me playing it off as if i didnt know any of them go okay pick a number 1-20 Derek like mouthed 4 to me, so i told the kid next to me the number is 4. Lol derek guessed it and got it and gave it to me. I got the one of the guitarest to sign it for me :]!! ekkk so happy it was fun. So i walked to the back and Chatted with Mikey and Jillian walks up and some how She and I start talking? Lol So We went together to go watch A Static Lullaby they were so sweet live you don't even know :) lol. I Loved every second of the concert fa sho. Lol.After we went outside and everyone just chatted than we left. I Loveeeeeeeeddd ittt.
Also.. I had alot of bad judgements abotu a few people there, which were very wrong. Its weird usually when i dont like someone i dont care i just dont get to know them. I dont know maybe i was being nice? lol But yeah so i have gained some people that i really enjoy. :]
<3<3<3<3 Lah
The butterflies in my stomach
They could bring me to my knees
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[30 Nov 2004|10:23am] |
Half smoked cigarettes and you're the trash that infests my sheets
can't make a wife out of a whore, don't want your skin on me
And you're, you're addicted to the drug of lust
A de-tox in the cold sweat of shame
and I love your pain
I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on a dusty shelf
So this love's been worn down, like songs on a tape
The sex has lost all of its fun, like gum loses taste
And you're, you're addicted to the drug of lust,
A de-tox in the cold sweat of shame
and I love your pain
I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on the shelf
I'm here lying in your bed babe
Remember what you said to me
"You can be my james dean, I'll be your sweet queen"
I said that you were my first, but you weren't even close now
Like a frame in a movie, you're just one of many
Can you grant me one last wish
Play russian roulette as we kiss
I'll be your cheap novelty
Blow your brains out on me
I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on the shelf
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| i sit alone and wonder... |
[30 Nov 2004|07:50am] |
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Holy shit, I've never cried so hard in my life untill last night...
Theres been alot of things on my mind latley and I've just been ignoring them.. and well me & mikey talked last night for about 3 good hours. And i finally relized so much. he serisouly taught me so much in a matter of 3 hours its crazy.. no kiddding. THanks Mikey.. i love you.
Im really done with so much of my past. Im not going to sit back and relive and i can't. its like knowing the end to the worst movie you've ever seen but watching it anyway Its sad. It was so hard for meto just say forget it.. and really i havnt yet but i really really want to. I don't want to do this anymore and I know i can say it all know, but I honestly don't know if im going to be a strong enough person when it actually comes time to do it. Im so weak. Theres no way i can do this in person im seriouly in love with his eyes, and its going to kill me to leave him. But i have to this isnt right and i know it, this isnt the kind of realtionship i want. I could have so much more...I deserve so much more..
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| Fell in Love & Fell apart. |
[29 Nov 2004|10:11am] |
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So i havent wrote in here in about a week.
My Thanksgiving weekend was amazing, Istayed at amandas the whole time becasue my mom was up north and amandas parents were in Ohio so we had to stay home with her Gramma. Well Thursday we had Beaver Cory + Brittany over we all just chilled that was fun, me and cory decided we would be "together".. ehh kinda? but i dont know. Friday The boys came over and we all hung out Mikey came too i missed that boy, we went to wendys and ate and all that great stuff saturday we did the same finally sunday i got home and chillled. LMFAO but saturday when me and brittany and amanda went to Wendys it was the freaking best. "i can feel it in my head and it comes slowly down.." "can i get a Jr. Jr. Jr. Jr. Jr. Jr. Jr" lmfao halarious. I absolutly loved it and i love you girls :) Sunday night i was just online + around the house i had the best chat with amber, i was in such a bad mood and she just cracked me up. I Love her to death i cant wait to see her tommaorw at A Static Lullaby and Hawthorne Heights Woot woot :Þ
So anyway im kind'a just writing in here to vent because alot of people look at my Lj...
So about this whole me and cory sitation, i dont know what to do. I just know its going to be the same as last time, and i dont know if thats worth the hurt. I mean i've learned to no fall like last time, and I've built my walls back up so i mean if it does happen like last time it wont hurt as much by far, but if i know its not going to work is it worth my time? Or shit what do i know maybe it will work and im just doubting everything. But he jokes alot with me and i never know what to belive and what not to belive and it pisses me off so much. He says he sorry cuz he knows i hate it, but i can't deal with it. He says hes sorry for ever hurting me and for when he "treats me bad" but does he mean it? Its not like he treats me bad at all.. when were together he treats me GREAT.. but its when were not together i have to worry about him constantly and make sure hes not doing anything bad. He said hes changed but hes yet to prove it...
eh i dont knoe :/
-lah
Im feeling so lah today :/
.. i love my friends thank you guys for always being here for me.. Brittany n' Amanda.. thank you amber to for chatting with me last night it ment alot to me.
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| HOLYSHITILOVEMATCHBOOKROMANCE!!! |
[22 Nov 2004|12:16am] |
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So today i got up went out to breakfast with Bill well not really actually lunch. Than we sat at micahs i took a short nap. Came home showerd and such got ready than finally Ratch Came and got me, we went and got Jamie and Cac and we were off. We got a little lost but made it to the concert. hidden in plain view went on there so fucking awesome they got done and we met the lead singer (joe) hes really awesome hes funny we chatted with him for a little bit than Midtown went on we met up with gaither and talked to him and than none other than Ryan was standing behind us.,.. yup Ryan from Matchbook romance so we went mat him and talked to him for a hott second, than we chilled talked to dirty for a few and noone other than aaron from matchbook walks by, so we got his signature also and also the drummer from hidden in plain view. It was so awesoem matchbook went on and we all squished our way to the front. Wow!! they did do fucking awseom is was so fucking fun i cant belive it. After matchbook got off we were walking out and Ryan is standing there so we talked to him again and he digned cac's shirt and did Rachels Email, it was funny. i had a fucking awesome time!
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| I dont think ill ever calm back down.. |
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sorry for the lack of updates, its not that i dont have time its just theres nothing to write i guess. Lifes jsut been kinad slow. School Cheerleading and Home this weekend was pretty good though i guess friday i stayed the night at brittanys we went to micahs and watched "whats eating gilbert grape" than home + i crashed. Saturday bill + micah came and got me amadna n' britt we went to farmer jack's mijers and krogers nowehre had purpal skittles o well. Than to taco bell we just chilled. But the wirdest thing happend.. Trevopr called i havent talked to him in forever i liked it. I mean i miss him we did go out for like a year and some odd months, and than not talking for 5 months and he just called outta the blue. It was nice. today will beat all though
MATCHBOOK ROMANCE WITH RACHEL CAC n' JAMIE
wow i cant wait.. im fuckign pumped.
xo lah
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[14 Nov 2004|09:29pm] |
New Layout, and i am nothing less than OBSESSED let me know what you think
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